The other thing to discover is the genetic side of things. Foundation Medicine in Cambridge is in now processing another block of my tissue to analyze 315 genes and potential issues. That should be useful information, but my oncologist said we may not be able to act upon any of it because I am technically not in a metastasis situation, which is a state I hope to never experience:) The mental anguish is really affecting me today and it is a weary task to see the right course of action when I feel like I have to keep advocating for myself. With the holidays approaching I just want to be able to enjoy them and not have to deal with all of this right now! Yep, I'm having an off day, but it's to be expected I guess to stumble on occasion...I would not be human if I was always in a positive state of mind:( I'm going to lift this cloud on this rainy day somehow!