Sorry everyone, I have not felt up to writing much lately. I guess it comes in waves depending on my energy level. I have completed 3 treatments and each one is a bit more tough than the one before, but overall it's really only a few bad days right afterwards. Today I almost feel normal:) It was a beautiful, sunny day and I did some paperwork and enjoyed sitting on my back deck "Oasis" that a few friends put together for me. Yesterday, Robyn and Donna joined me on the lake and I was actually able to Kayak, which felt awesome! My arms work again and my chest muscles were fine during rowing, to my surprise. It was so wonderful to feel like myself, once again.
A funny story that happened just before my first chemo treatment. My daughter started singing a song that was so appropriate, and one I needed to hear. It's called "Titanium" and is about a woman who gets fired at, but won't fall, because all the negative crap deflects off her, stronger than steel like titanium. That's my approach with the chemo treatments. It is poison, and I am consciously allowing it to do it's work but within parameters that I am intending at a cellular level, but I won't fall to it. I also truly believe Chemo is a temporary cell thing, and that I still will need to do the work to keep the environment in my body in a state where cancer will not be able to grow. I plan to add some references to this blog soon to share what I have learned.
Another funny song story... On the day of my bone scan, which was the day before I started chemo, I could not help singing the "Radioactive" song after leaving the nuclear medicine lab and getting my injection. I'm not sure how these songs keep coming to me, but it keeps the mood light and makes me chuckle, which is good!
I usually get home from MGH from my infusions feeling a bit warm and a bit queasy, otherwise I felt mostly normal. I've only needed to take the anti-nausea meds for 3 days and then don't seem to need them anymore. I'm still eating a lot, but not as strict of a diet during this time because comfort foods are in order:)
It really has not slowed me down too much. Studies show it is good to keep exercising through it, so I have been doing Spinning classes a the gym...but I will stop this soon with cold and flu season approaching. I'll just walk the dog and do light weights at home.
Finally, what's really tough is the new school schedule with 3 different routines! Jamie started High School, David started Middle School and Kendra is now in the 4th grade, so the morning routine Is crazy with the 1st one up at 5:30am, the next one at 6:30am and then 7:30am. I find there is not much time to really feel sorry for myself and as long as the kids see me functioning as normal, they are more confident that I will be fine. That's important to me and keeps me going strong:)
A funny story that happened just before my first chemo treatment. My daughter started singing a song that was so appropriate, and one I needed to hear. It's called "Titanium" and is about a woman who gets fired at, but won't fall, because all the negative crap deflects off her, stronger than steel like titanium. That's my approach with the chemo treatments. It is poison, and I am consciously allowing it to do it's work but within parameters that I am intending at a cellular level, but I won't fall to it. I also truly believe Chemo is a temporary cell thing, and that I still will need to do the work to keep the environment in my body in a state where cancer will not be able to grow. I plan to add some references to this blog soon to share what I have learned.
Another funny song story... On the day of my bone scan, which was the day before I started chemo, I could not help singing the "Radioactive" song after leaving the nuclear medicine lab and getting my injection. I'm not sure how these songs keep coming to me, but it keeps the mood light and makes me chuckle, which is good!
I usually get home from MGH from my infusions feeling a bit warm and a bit queasy, otherwise I felt mostly normal. I've only needed to take the anti-nausea meds for 3 days and then don't seem to need them anymore. I'm still eating a lot, but not as strict of a diet during this time because comfort foods are in order:)
It really has not slowed me down too much. Studies show it is good to keep exercising through it, so I have been doing Spinning classes a the gym...but I will stop this soon with cold and flu season approaching. I'll just walk the dog and do light weights at home.
Finally, what's really tough is the new school schedule with 3 different routines! Jamie started High School, David started Middle School and Kendra is now in the 4th grade, so the morning routine Is crazy with the 1st one up at 5:30am, the next one at 6:30am and then 7:30am. I find there is not much time to really feel sorry for myself and as long as the kids see me functioning as normal, they are more confident that I will be fine. That's important to me and keeps me going strong:)